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September 02 new chapter3 months of summer is officially over today
i feel tired n exhausted, but at the same time i feel fulfilled
maybe it's becuz i found the answer i was searching for, or maybe becuz i found a whole new chapter to my life
or maybe.., just maybe, ...it's both
during these 3 months, i discovered a hidden personality of me
perhaps it's what distinguished me from others, or perhaps it's wut separated me from others
i reallie don't no
i don't think i've ever been so lost in my life be4
i no im searchin for something and i couldn't find it, yet im still searching
has it been more than a thousand times already have i thought to myself, "what is it bout me that has changed?"
i think something HAS changed, but others propsed the opposite
maybe it's exactly what i needed, TO CHANGE
never have i been so stressed or confused
everything i thought i have loved and cherished becomes everything i couldn't have been more careless about
yes, everything i see is blurred and gray
so different from wut i used to see
it used to be colorful and happy
HAPPY......
i want a change, and i demade a change!
that's a promise i made to myself
im not lack of materialistic things, in fact, i think im havin a hard time due to excessively exposure to materialistic thinking
do i miss my past?
yes, becuz i was so happy living in it
do i want to go back?
not reallie becuz that means i have to face my pain all over again
should i start over?
perhaps, if i can figure out a solution by then
am i ever goin to be happy again?
hard to say, becuz my perception of happiness changes all the time
do i need a guy to be happy?
lol, i don't no, depends.....
well, hopefully the next time i log on here i would be more happy and fulfilled
hopefully i'll get to show-off the "new me"
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